Perhaps I have put too much pressure on myself, overly concerned, too nervous and there's quite a number of issues tt have been pressing me.. Hence I couldnt really take it initially when the truth is known even though I would have somehow expected it.. Or perhaps what I am saying are just excuses to make myself feel better... Labels: I need to find my motivation and confidence...
And yup I should learn from my mistakes.... But sometimes instead of getting some comforting/ encouraging words from someone close to u, i got this, 'I tot they say sch one sure one time passed one?' 'aiyo u better go take few more lessons to practice more if not next time we wont dare to sit in the car u drove(spoken in mandarin).'
I know is the truth and is not wrong to say that but it just hurts totally to me but ironically I was once put to danger by u too. Sometimes I wished we were close enough tt sometimes I do envy others. In times like this, I can only let down my emotions in the toilet... But anyhow, Thanks to those who have 'comfort' me in a way still... :)
I felt exhausted and have not much motivation at the moment and i dono if i will still feel nervous for the next round but somehow is also a relief which I dont know why... But I know is no use thinking over it n hopefully work will bring me back my motivation coz I need to be strong mentally now... =)
Went to meet my agent earlier on to sign my job contract, was kinda apologetic towards him coz he has been waiting for me to come after office hours and he was really hungry as his stomach was growling non-stop loudly when he was explaining the contract to me... =p And he's so funny coz he kept saying sorry to me whenever it growls and he will just beat his stomach to ask it to stop it... Lol... And before I left the office, he was so lame to tell me:
Agent: Oh... I know y u failed already....
Me: huh? what?
Agent: Coz 你的衣服穿不够少....
-.-..... he's so full of nonsense....