Brother came back...
haha....long time nvr write again....alot of things to say but i nvr write down...1st of July, my bro came back fr Australia with his girlfriend... & now he went to Australia on 22nd of July.. haiz....he came back a very short time only as between tt period,he went to hong kong with his girlfriend too...my bro n his gf bought me a p0oh bear...hahaz....so cute manz....when u hug it is like a real baby liddat hugging on u...hahaz....
Sad,lonely,hurt...
okay...i remember on a sunday....i cried again.... i felt like no one undertands me n cares for me... all because of my this SIS!! Tt time i really hate her a lot.... she is such a sarcastic,hurtful,idiotic, selfish,stingy,arrogrance sister...she will nvr cares for me....all the while she have been nagging n scolding me without sparing a thought for me....everytime scold me for using msn(is like i cant even use liddat n i have not been online for quite a while) say computer is for doing research n checking emails all these.... always looking down on me too... is soo huRt!ng manz... watever she says,my mum will sort of agrees wif her in the end... no one knows bout me manz.... n i cried at tt time... my bro was tokin to my sis at tt time, my sis was complaining bout me to my bro....n i heard my bro toking to my sis too....saying tt maybe my sis have been using the wrong method to look after me... is like my bro is helping me... n i thinks tt maybe only my bro understands how i feel.... after this incident, i felt tt these few days my sis's attitute seems to have changed abit....she was not scoldin n nagging at me so much....
Results....
haiz...today i got my maths test paper back...33.5/50.... i am not satisfied!! i am always passing at this range.... n someone always win me by a few marks... argh.... even my english also... is dropping abit... n someone wins me again... i felt like i am like stupid idoitic.... seems like always at the losing end... :'( i am so scared tt i cant pass my N level..... if i fail i will sure die.....
how i felt about people....
sometimes i really dislike some people alot...i got one friend who is like like to be a smart alec.... she thinks tt she knows everything although there r some things tt she dont know but she will jus pretend tt she knows n say,"orh...i know i know tt one...." always saying this....trying to act smart... or she will be so lame tt i cant stand manz....is like she's mad or wat when u ask her to stop it n she will not stop....trying to be lame? ya sure but pls dont be so exaggerate n limit urself... u will irritates pple... she will also be quite straightforward at times where she dont cares bout how others feel... me friends also said tt...i hate hyprocrites.... nowadays i also nvr tok to her....
another type of friend i dislike is pple who are arrogrance, think highly of herself,like to stare at pple with the looks of looking down on pple, weird looking or hateful looking.... some pple who are so arrogrance tt if they feel like toking to u,they will tok u whenever they like or just using u as a subsititute....
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i think i will end here....write too much already i think...